Ambition-Fears
Ari Posen commenting on Wilder: “he always said that the best movies have a tiny, bitter pill that you want the audience to swallow, but to get them to swallow it you have to coat it in lots and lots of sugar. And sugar is humor and character development and plot twists and clever dialogue”
It would be unjust for me not to comment on my examination session and first official screening of my first short film “Isaac and Isha”. Although I can be a bit worrisome I am generally known for my confidence. After a year and a half of grueling work on my project Isaac and Isha, I was not confident. I was anxious, nervous, exhausted and sick to my stomach. My film was one of the last to screen and the agony of having to wait to watch it was painful. I had to contain myself from not walking out when I pressed play. I can honestly say I put nothing but time, love and patience into this piece of work. The problem is of couse when you finish your first work you look back and notice everything you could have done differently and better! When someone asked me what I would have done differently I have to honest the truth is everything…let me do it again please!
“Isaac and Isha”. If I had known when I started the task what I know now I am not sure I would have continued. I have been involved in every element of the creative and non-creative process. I feel like I have given birth to the piece. But, I also know there is a point at which you must let it go and let it make its way out into the world. It needs to be allowed to fly and have an opportunity o send its message off to others. It’s my bitter pill coated in layers of chocolate.
Now for a short discussion on the collaborative piece. I worked with the indie band Yidcore to produce their music video “ for If I Were A Rich Man”. Well I am pleased with what we have put together. I certainly do not think it is about to win any awards but it is what the band wanted! It is silly and funny so it should appeal to the right demographic. I think it will hit its intended target audience. Furthermore, I enjoyed creating a piece that was not about my taste but about the taste of others. I know if the band is happy their fans, many of whom are in it, will also be very happy. I was not nervous to show this piece because it has not taken me nearly the same amount of time or energy to create.
So What Are My Ambitions:
To Produce big budget high intensity films. I would like to have a career, which allows me to constantly encounter new challenges and experiences. I want to work on projects that force me out of my comfort zone to discover new ideas and compel me to research subjects, and aspects of life, I know nothing about. I want to look back on my life and know that I took every opportunity to live a life less ordinary. Such a life can only be lived making films!
Wish Me LUCK!!!
